New shoes and times.

So I had to buy some new running shoes and in so glad I did!!!! I got last year's Nike Pegasus from my local running store and I'm happy that they were on clearance and only $75 but more happy that the guy helping me actually listened to my laundry list of aches and pains. These shows are super comfortable and even though I forgot my knee brace today my knee is not bothering me. Yay!!!

So another thing that I love is that I ran my fastest mile today. 11:12. Not that that's super fast or anything but what I love is that I didn't kill myself getting there. My pace was a nice even kilter that I was able to maintain through out my run. Love!!

So that's my check in. See y'all later.

Full circle.

So it's been 9 years and 8 days since I first said "I do," and I have come full circle. Weight wise at least. My most recent weigh in came in at 227.8. That's my wedding weight.

It's kind of odd. I'm not used to seeing this body attached to me. I'm actually in disbelief. I wanted to be at this weight a month ago but what's another month in the scheme of things?

Not much, but what I wasn't expecting was my reaction to the additional weight loss. I'm totally happy with the it but what I wasn't expecting was the anxiety to return.

The sane, logical side of me knows what's going on. I'm stressed and therefore freaking out about ridiculous things. I have no workout schedule. I'm barely hanging onto my diet. My kids are growing up without me it seems. In short, I feel disconnected and its screwing with my balance. Hate doesn't even begin to describe the distaste I have for this phenom right now.

The emotional, psycho side of me wants to curl up in a ball with my family, the tv, chocolate, coffee, nachos, fuzzy slippers, and a blanket big enough for all of us and never move again. Cause that's totally plausible. *eye roll*

Sigh. I need to get my head screwed on straight. I need to charge forward like I *always* do. I need to find my way.

Anyone have a map?